Yes... I know it's spring, but it's still freaken cold.... at least it is for me.
I mean....I'm running around wearing wool socks, heavy sweaters and a scarf around my head looking like a WWII European immigrant, but I could live with that if it weren't for the pain.
I'm feeling the cold deep in my joints. A deep aching pain and stiffness that makes me feel trapped in my own body, tired and unable to move, just like when I first got sick.
I've been telling myself this is just one of those things I'm going to have to live with from time to time. That being cold sensitive it just part of living with this disorder, but what I didn't expect to see were actual physical signs of my suffering.
The base of my nails were actually turning BLUE...
WTF!!
I've been trying to get used to the fact that this thing I've been living with, others can't see, yet here's physical proof that I'm freezing.
Talk about a mixture of fear and relief.
I'm relieved because though I've had conformation that what I'm going through is real, and I know it is, I still sometimes feel like this could all be in my head. But I'm afraid because I'm not too sure what this new symptom means.
I know that two reasons for your nail beds to turn blue are either:
1. due to temperature, or
2. due to lack of oxygen in the blood from, respiratory issues, vascular issues or anemia.
But the only thing preceding my nails tuning blue was feeling extremely cold. I didn't have any breathing problems, nor was the house cold enough to cause that sort of reaction. I have always been slightly anemic but that's not enough to cause this.
So now I have this completely new phenomenon on my hands (literally) that I have to keep an eye on and that I'll have to tell my bran spanking new general practitioner once the issues with my insurance clear up (a whole other bag of worms I'll write about later)
